::sigh::
My Mommy and Mom (Grandma Letty) are trying so hard to make me happy again. I can tell. . . .
On Monday, we went to get my passport and ended up only getting Jessalbutt's because she's sixteen and doesn't nessacerily(sp) need Mommy there, but I'm only fourteen going on fifteen soooo. . .. Yeah. . . But I got it today. . But anyhow. .
Monday!(Lolz) I ended up getting contacts. . . And on the first day. . I lost the right one in my eye. I thought I had dropped it or something, because I couldn't see it, but it ended up at the edge of my eye and I got all worked up. Signature choir wasn't half bad. . . Because I got to stay a first for practically all the songs. . .
TODAY!(I see. . . A pattern . . .) We went to the mall. Shopped for clothes, curtains, then cds. . . Then I went back to the post office to get my pass port with Mommy. . . Then we went to the mall and got my ears pierced. . . I got more new shoes. . . (I'm such a spoiled brat. . . I need to stop asking for more . .. But how can I resist?)
Tommorrow.(. . . .) At lunch I'm going for a fourty-five dollar appointment to get my hair styled . . . .FOURTY-FIVE! I can't wait to show everyone my new look when I get to school. . . But I can't help but feel selfish. All I've done lately is ask. I get new clothes, cds, asscersories, mirrors in my room, food at the snap of my finger, earings and piercing that was about fourty dollars because I can't wear fakes, a necklace that cost (what?) thirty-five dollars, contacts that cost a lot (can't remember. . .), now a hair style that'll cost about fourty-five dollars!
I hate being so selfish. . . And, when I can't repay it back. . . I don't know what to do. .. I'm bad at school and I can't find the motivation to start on any. .. I can't pay them back in money. .. I would owe them around one-thousand dollars. . ..
Why do I always feel helpless?
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